Shandi Sturgill

I know I should be happy
My work’s getting praise
But no matter how I try
It feels like something’s missing

I guess some of us
Are always meant to be alone
To go through life being just a little unknown
So I just stay on the outside
With this gnawing feeling
Could all I’m destined for be
To fade into the background

I’m ashamed to admit I’ve always
Felt like a ghost
Someone who’s barely there
Everyone just looks through me
While I’m banging on the door
Begging to get in 

Can I just once
Be seen as a star
Right now I can’t make sense
Of how the thing
I planned on being my place in the world
Somehow only brought me loneliness

I’ve always been
The smart girl
The good girl
But playing by the rules just gets you nowhere 

 I guess some of us
Are always meant to be alone
To go through life being just a little unknown
So I just stay on the outside
With this gnawing feeling
Could all I’m destined for be
To fade into the background